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I recently read somewhere that scientists had found out that memories can be saved within DNA and thus be recalled by later generations. I learned to be careful when something begins with “scientists have found out” though, they found out that we orinilly all lived in africa, that we have the same ancestors as apes, that CO2 makes the weather warmer, et cetera, et cetera. This however awoke my interest and I looked it up in the internet and found this great article. It gives an example of someone who fears bears for appearently no good reason. Then the theory is given, that the reason may probably be that one ancestor of this person had a really bad experience with a bear some hundrets or thousands of years ago (for example they saw someone getting killed by a bear or almost got killed themselves by one), and this experience was saved within their DNA. This would explain why I personally have a fear of heights and ants. Maybe one of my ancestors (i. e. I, in a previous life) almost fell from a mountain or actually did so, but survived badly injured and maybe this same ancestor, but probably a different one woke up at morning and was covered all over by ants.
Naturally this “remembering” is not the same form of remembering how you drove home from work yesterday or how you spoke to somebody 2 years ago. It is a much more intuitive and instinctive remembering. It isn’t a remembering through thinking, but through feeling. An interesting thing about this form of remembering is that we obviously can only remember experiences of our ancestors, which they have experienced as children or young adults, because when something is saved into your DNA, it will dissappear with your death if you do not get children afterwards. So it is very probable that things we remember from previous lives have happened in childhood or as young adults, because it is probable that we (i. e. our ancestors) got children after that and it is pretty unprobable that these things we remember happened when we (i. e. our ancestors) were 50 years or so, because in this case it is pretty unprobable that we got children after that. This means that childhood is the most important time in our lives, it does not only influence us, but also the future of our offspring, wherease things that we experience when we are older only influence us ourselves (in the sense of “us within this life/body”).
I do not know how other people feel, but I really feel the past within me. I always felt it. I do not know that I want to live like my ancestors again. I do not know it, I feel it! I do not want to live a natural life again as I have done it 15,000 years ago, because I have read about that on Thulean Perspective or on Burzum.org. No, I long for that, because this is what I feel, what I have always felt. I felt it already in school. I felt this whole unnecessity of the modern world. Why are we using electricity and fossile recources and thus a power that does not belong to us? Why have we created these ugly cities? We have we destroyed all the beautiful forests? Why can’t we still live like the people in the fairy tales? We once could, why not now? I could not understand this and I still cannot understand it. Maybe there simply are not many others, who feel the past as strong as me? But why? I don’t know. Maybe they too hear the voices of the past, but simply forgot how to listen to them or how to understand their language. A quote from the end of the article I linked: “Listen to the voices, feelings, sights and experiences of our ancestors. Their lives, joys and fears are within us. In that way, they are with us always.”
But time, as explained elsewhere, is not a line, but a circle, so the past is also the future and maybe this future is nearer than we thought or nearer than we might ectually want. I want to be honest, what I am about to say now might sound strange to some (or many), or it might rather sound crazy, tasteless and cruel, but I really welcome Ebola. I hope Ebola will become a pandemia. I hope that Ebola will destroy modern civilisation. I do absolutely not care, if I will die myself, death is not much worse (if it is even worse?) than living in this modern nightmare called civilisation. Some people will survive anyway and if I am not amongst them in person then in spirit (i. e. through them having [more or less] the same genes as I have), if this is the case then I have probably died because of some other genes I have, which were not supposed to survive by nature, as simple as that, my bad genes will be destroyed and my good genes will survive through other people. Anyway the people who survive (and through them also I [or at least a part of me]) will find themselves in a world that will look like the world looked 10,000 years ago and there is nothing in the world I am looking more forward to than this.